Friday, July 30, 2010

For the First Time in A Long Time

i feel the heat. and the fluttering in my heart.

this minute, this second, as i look at you sleeping soundly next to me, i'm falling into you. i dunno how did all this started. things have morphed so quickly into something i am so scared to admit. i remembered just past couple of weeks, i told myself that this's gonna be casual, light-hearted, temporary, and i can just drop it as and when i want, but i guess feelings dont lie, feelings dont just switch on and off.

i dunno how not to submit to the many laughters and all the fuzzy feelings you secretly instilled in me. the smiles, the silly lil things we did, the buttery kisses, the teases, and all the cheekiness we were up to. i love how you always grope around the bed in the middle of the night to find my hand and hold me tightly to your chest, and then us falling asleep together holding hands, with our legs entwined and warm under the sheets. i love how you always catch me off-guard and surprise me with a side of you i've never known. all these lil things.

i wonder sometimes where we go from here. but at least at this moment, this second, i know as i close my eyes i think of you, when i come across something funny i wish to tell you so that we can laugh about it together, i want to hold your hand, kiss you, run with you. i don't think i know you all that well but this is simply how i feel.