nepal.

cashmere.

alchemist.

a kind gesture.

your text.

henderson waves.

blister.

cheekiness.

water fountain.

fullerton.

superhero.

giggles.

closure. 

it has been a wonderful 3 days. everything seems to have changed. and yet it doesnt feel like it. its been 3 years. you are still doing your old tricks like a lil boy. and i still cant do nothing about it other than rolling my eyes at you.  

i'm glad how all these pan out. the midnight talks. so as i thought i'm sharing with you first hand this unexplainable coincidences of the little tea cups and a plant, you have already  secretly had a glimpse of it 5 years ago.

i can't help to wonder what these all mean.

there was

its been such a long while since i last write. or rather, feel my emotion.

there's so much happiness this morning. from the impromptu escapade. the texts. and the remnants of last night call with you. i love how such short conversation always seems drifting across things, never quite getting anywhere, and yet never failed to leave me feeling contented followed with a good night sleep; strangely, it always sounds welcoming, but just doesnt confirm anything. if i'm lucky, i might catch it on a vulnerable night. and it will spill something out of its mouth and onto your soul.

**
there are times where i still wonder the what ifs . there are times where i would construct this false sense of myself that earnestly believed there was a place for me there. but i guess i'll never find out. or perhaps i'm not at all that keen to find out.

looking back at the posts. the pictures. i thought you have been well buried somewhere deep down and never will resurface. but all of these are indicating that i have been and will always think about you, unknowingly. be it when i was happy, or when i was missing some others.

i guess all i want to say is that, i'm still missing you. 

看到了明道 
也想起了你
你们笑起来还真的有像耶
想起了我们一起看钟无颜后的那一段对话
我笑了

好想再看你笑的样子
和那深深的酒窝

how funny is this that the busier i get, the more i think of you.

how are you. 

怎么办
怎么办
怎么办

还是很想你

一次又一次的在想
可以打给你了吗
你会想要和我说话了吗
不想要让你有负担
又不想要一直压抑对你的想念

我该怎么办啦

想念

有好多好多话想和你说
好想好想给你打电话

不知道你心里觉得比较轻松了吗

原来想念也有很多种
平时的想念就只是想
今天的想念里却有揪揪的感觉
有点想掉眼泪但又不知道是为了什么

真的很想你
想你的声音
想你笑的样子
想你爱玩的时候
想你有时傻傻的

你想我了吗

how do you look at the person you love and tell yourself it's time to walk away.

impact of moments.

the vow.

inspired.

bubbles.

light show.

sound of the night.

you. 

我还是相信
其实啊 真的可以试着享受什么事也不用做的片刻
放下武士精神 接受生活上的不确定

情感
并不应该被视为一个会让你停滞不前或软弱的东西
可以感受感觉情感
放开心胸接纳未知
全心全意
诚实诚恳
可以让你有更多的真实刹那
更能自由自在的生活

wasnt at all expecting that you are still the very first person i thought of sharing the satisfying discussion i had with the people today. almost gonna call you and then the hesitation kicks in - how i wish i could just do it and ignore the whispers that were asking me to give you a lil bit more time and space.

i wonder if this is gonna be the way it is from now on - to submit to the mind instead of following the heart.

i can't help but to think what does this mean to honouring the Now.

last evening, i was given a simple thank you with a smile from the person selling me the dumplings. maybe it wasnt just a thank you and a smile, its a full hearted sincere personal thank you that warms my heart. i was pleasantly surprise by such gesture, in the hustle bustle of life where everybody seems to be so distant, reserved and self-centered, i was given a glimpse of pure expression of gratitude.

i might have forgotten who you are as time passes but i will never forget that moment of presence. thank you for giving me the treasured opportunity to rediscover the beauty of life and pure bliss.

喜欢

好喜欢和爸聊天的感觉
喜欢每天都可以从生活中发现小小的乐趣和值得学习的人生哲理

也好喜欢一家人在一起吃饭看电视的感觉
就算没有说话
也觉得很开心

喜欢自己一个人在家时不再觉得无聊
喜欢想你的时候　
就只是想你