All Smiles

happiness is sitting on the horizon and yes. i'm happy now. this very minute. happier. bois. i love bois! bois are just like the pencils. graphite. gel ink. glossy finish. sanded. round. hexagonal. triagular. incense cedar. oh i have a sentimental favourite for the wooden pencils. particularly when the paint is thick. buttery and flawless!

Moorish and Chance Encounters

thats what makes it click - a smile, some giggles over the infusion tea, exchange of korean and chinese, the difference that seems so alike, two men and one subject.

i am happy.

Yo Beatboxer

current state of mood: high

reason: rose plus beardyman. he's sooo totally absolutely mindblowingly brilliant!!!!!! its explosive!!!

gawd!! i can't contain my blood rush!!!

Skin

look, this is what sends pulses - a good chat with someone you like that leads to getting to know her better and liking her better, which then leads to looking up on that website, and which then leads to finding sth that match your interest!!!!

i am excited, literally!!! i dunno why, i just am. richard bojar please say you have time to meet me. please say you've something for me. please.

and i'll love the you as much as i love the SKIN.

Day 4

4 days running on the road - i'm a bit burnt out, in a good way thou.

great company, lots of picture taking sessions, lots of funny poses and lots of laughters - what could be better than these.

The Wooden Frame

i knew it. i knew i'm goin to be happy!! hahaha.

that first halo is the killer. spot on. right at my heart. i'm dead.

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i love the elaboration. can i assume that it's not universal. can i assume that it's target specific.

'you'll kill me if i tell you'. that cheekiness. sheesh. you know i will kill you too if you dont tell me.

i see the stirs. its so prominently visible. forever resonating it is spilling all over me. you smile, and i smile. i don remember the hows, all i know is that my hand flies to my heart when you gave me all the 'dens'. it's always the little details. innit. how do i not ache for the sunrise. such affinity. you and i.

it was a time of 'poooob' and pure bliss. can i drown you in the said pinkiness.

buhbye.

The Taste of

Happiness.

Pig intestines - crispy on the outside and soft on the inside. saliva stimulating. 2 leopard printed shoes - cute with an opaque black legging, sexy with a glossy sheer stocking. pulse raising. they sound like any normal kind of food and girls shopping, i know, but even the most exceptional pig intestines and shoe sound like any normal pig intestines and shoe. thats why they’re special. coz you dont know they’re special until its too late.

and my heart was healed, just yesterday. I don't know how, they are therapeutic somehow.

Bubbles

cold night. minus five degrees. 2 a.m.
fav duck tongues, wings, and booze. loads of booze to kill the night.
i was somewhere in between drunk and being high.
head swirling. i was off the ground.
then there was a chain reaction of gags and dry heaves. mascara mixed.
the pat on my back and rubbing on my chest. it was calming & soothing.
the feeling of being cared for.
2 hours of sleep. it was surprisingly pleasant.
its a beautiful sunday morning.

Pink & Black

fluorescent pink. and black.
the booze.
the girls.
dim lights.
cool breeze.
music.
the highs.

i'm loving it. very much.

also, the color of my nails now.

Mackers in the house

no wonder you asked me go read your blog. =p you know dats goin to make me happy, don you!

hell! you now have me both the corner of my lips pulled up and outward as i'm writing this. god dammit!

I feel so mackers now! =p

The Very Blue Sky

Last night before goin to bed I was still thinking what if I was given just a Merit. Would I be satisfied. Right now, I'm just. damn. happy. Like over the top of the blue blue sky kinda happy. Distinction!!! Hohohoh. Whats more I'm the only one in my course being awarded a distinction. Hahaha. Sigh. Its so hard to be humble and not brag about it. so let me just do it for once ok. Yes. I know, I'm vain like this.

All the hard work has finally paid off! What was previously stress and all the swearing and rambling and whinning are now a warped kind of excitement!

Mia

SM has safely delivered a lovely baby girl today!!!! and it just got me sooo excited listening to her child labour experience from the bursting of water bag to the screaming of pain to the contractions and finally the baby's crying.

I was never this excited when my cousin in laws had theirs. and I don have ten thousand questions to ask them. But SM's just got all my nerves kicking, and I couldnt help throwing her all sorts of questions. the anaesthetic, the incision, the stitches, the screaming, the pain that feels like constipation, the breast feeding, the sucking, and all those interesting bits bout the confinement.

It's one helluva of an experience even just listening to it!! scary yet thrilling!!

Welcome, Mia!

Its officially gone

That is it!

That is all!

=)))

It's the brightest of day! hahaha.

edit: I suddenly feel that the hahaha from me is so weak.

3rd of September

is a day filled with love, laughters, smiles, best wishes, friendships, and you. All of you!

is a day of flowers and hearts, sunshine and lemonade!

is a day I woke up to so many texts and msges and warmth and hugs and kisses!

is a day I'm so eager to spread my happiness and give all my cheeky friends a big bear hug!

I'm once again in love with the number 9 and 3!

once again feeling so grateful to be brought into this world, and found all of you in between the billions of people in the world.

Nothing else can quite compare with this delightful day when every thought and heartfelt wishes is fondly sent my way!

I'm just. very happy.

Goodnite

There is always moment of bliss in between that pile of papers if I care to look for it a lil bit more.

Today, you made my searching for that lil joy a bit easier. Your voice from the other side made me happy for a while. Short lived it may seem, but it has silently marked down its presence behind my back, down my spine, and into the pool of fond memories.

Goodnight.

The Truth is

I really do like Fridays!

and Bank holidays!

=D hahaha. Now sing!

and the best thing bout stress is that it makes you a happier person when you're over it. so, thank you for being a !@#$%^& in my life.

lil thing that made me happy

Just one minute ago I was feeling all so spiritless. Grey.

Den I saw the picture of you indulging yourself in the luxury 5 stars hotel, wearing a white bath robe sitting on the couch acting as if you're the boss with that ever-so-stupid-punch-me-face expression!! Hahaha. I burst out laughing immediately. Why la you have to look so funny in the picture. =p

You've done a good job! tell me, how can I not like poking you. We must be good friends forever and ever and ever and ever and you will keep that funniest side of you which has never failed to make me laugh till we age ok.

Transition

I like today!

I've bought myself a new tennis racket. and I've got a hair cut I'm satisfied with. Sigh. Splurging always makes ppl happy. Why.

And I think how you feel the moment you wake up in the morning affects the rest of the day. Today, I only want to smile.

a lil smile for the day

Lil joy I have for a Monday evening, despite an awful morning that almost killed me!

I've got the peak I'm longing to see, and I've got the crystal I'm dying to get!! They are not perfect yet, but hey at least I see a crack in the bottleneck ok.

And I like speaking to Hammond. Everything seems to make more sense when coming from him. And seriously, I think this is how a supervisor should be like, supporting the students when they are confused, have a lil talk with them to find out the problems they are facing, and really mean it when you say work as a team, instead of sayin, 'oh, thats for you to find out, this is how research is and you gotta be independent bla bla bla shit!'. Screw this shit!

OK. I shall not spoil my mood by digressing this supposedly a happy post into a rant.

8 more weeks! I just can't wait man! cant wait to get out of this bloody place! =p

The magic of cards

The cards made me happy. The process of making cards made me happy. The thoughts of them and how their happy faces would be like when they see the cards made me happy.

To be happy is simple. It is true that by giving you gain satisfaction with life, with yourself..it's the 'want' to do something for your loved ones, just like how every morning when I'm making myself breakfast, I want to make you one too.

Thats the feeling isnt it. Sincerely, truely, unconditionally wanting and wishing and hoping they are happy.