Oouch! it hurts!

Went skating this evening. Ice skating. First time doin it, so I was rather excited, and a bit nervous; I've problem with balancing. =p

Lesson 1 report:

I can walk with the skates on the ice, without support. heh.
I can glide a lil too.
I did like 7 rounds on my own.
I fell on my bum twice. And it hurts man I tell you. I can still feel the pain now. T_T
I've probably burnt more calories today than any other days.

This Comes a Lil Unexpected

I thought AZ is not goin to bother with my asking for feedbacks, but they have jus surprised me today. On one hand, I am like, glad, that they really do what they claimed, on the other hand, I'm feeling a bit, hesitant; can I handle the truth?

Driving

Bus crashed, again, 3 deaths.

It gives me a cringe reading the news for Konsortium was one of the bus company I took back then from Singapore back to KL, if not with Aeroline. If all rules and regulations imposed do not seem to effect, we can only watch out for ourselves. This bus crashing issue due to the recklessness and irresponsibility of the driver is not a new issue, it is never a new issue for that matter, but why is it still repeating itself? It's jus saddening, yet it seems to be the way to go these days.

Now that I no longer need to travel, I'm worried for my sister. She better stick with Aeroline which has a better credibility, especially CNY is around the corner.

Driving is never a one person's biz. Don't they jus fucking get it?

I Don't Know What Title This Should Be

The melody, the scent and the warmth still linger around the room.

I've got the lyrics translated, so bloody darn good it brings me back to those days.

Don't ask me 'are you happy', I'm not good at lying. That moment.

I've been mind-travelling back and forward of late.

The sorrow has lost its freshness.

So, what exactly do I want to say.

I've no idea but I know I need to have the crystals stuff ready, in me.

Fire Alarm Episode

The fire alarm went off. And it went off at a very brilliant hour - 6 in the morning where everyone was still in their deep slumber! Me certainly. Was made a bit hostile to be awaken by stupid bangings on the door which I thought I could ignore, but its persistency got me raised my white PJs, I mean, white flag.

Nobody was smiling, as far as I could see. Duh, who would at this freaking hours this weather? It's freezing outside ok. All I wanted was my bed and duvet. All tugged inside and be isolated. To think of it, I'd probably disregard the fire alarm if I were home coz false alarm was a norm, yaya I know it's not a very good thing to hold up to, but, ok no but.

Back to the scene. Someone contacted this guy who's in charge of the flat, and all was done was had that alarm switched off. Ha. Nope. I'm not being ironic here. I'm just, speechless. At least let us know what's goin on eh. Anyways, not like it's of any importance now for I'm already fully conscious.

Btw, seeing everyone being zombified and acting on autopilot was quite, errr, a something. =p

I'm goin back to sleep now.

The Pinocchio

Strange.

I've always wondered and I'm still wondering why is the annoyance feeling comes so naturally towards a certain person though that certain person is not even pricking your nose?

It is stranger that it's always easier to switch from like to not-like than not-like to like. It takes 5 to not like something, but it certainly needs 10 or more to get that not-like to become like. What is it in our mind that keeps the negative feelings continue to brew while the positive only a languid bliss?

Today, I'm watching the change, of another episode.

p/s: The Pinocchio Play was a lil slow and it almost lulled me to sleep. I think I did for 5 seconds.

The Rose

The Rose

Some say love, it is a river
That drowns the tender reed
Some say love, it is a razor
That leaves your soul to bleed

Some say love, it is a hunger
An endless aching need
I say love, it is a flower
And you, its only seed

It's the heart, afraid of breaking
That never learns to dance
It's the dream, afraid of waking
That never takes the chance

It's the one who won't be taken
Who cannot seem to give
And the soul, afraid of dying
That never learns to live

When the night has been too lonely
And the road has been too long
And you think that love is only
for the lucky and the strong

Just remember in the winter
Far beneath the bitter snow
Lies the seed
That with the sun's love, in the spring

Becomes the rose

Sweet Memories

Sweet Memories - Olivia Ong

Natsukashii itami da wa
Zutto mae ni wasurete ita
Demo anata wo mita toki
Jikan dake atomodori shita no

"Shiawase?" to kikanaide
Uso tsuku no wa jouzu ja nai
Tomodachi nara iru kedo
Anna ni wa moeagarenakute

Ushinatta yume dake ga
Utsukushiku mieru no wa naze kashira
Sugisatta yasashisa mo ima wa
Amai kioku sweet memories

Don't kiss me baby we can never be
So don't add more pain
Please don't hurt me again
I have spent so many nights
Thinking of you longing for your touch
I have once loved you so much

Ano koro wa wakasugite
Itazura ni kizutsukeatta futari
Iroaseta kanashimi mo ima wa
Tooi kioku sweet memories

Ushinatta yume dake ga
Utsukushiku mieru no wa naze kashira
Sugisatta yasashisa mo ima wa
Amai kioku sweet memories

This fills me.

Sometimes When We Touch

Sometimes When We Touch - Olivia Ong

You ask me if I love you
and I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
in what you say or do
I'm only just beginning
to see the real you

And sometimes when we touch
the honesty's too much
and I have to close my eyes and hide
I want to hold you till I die
till we both break down and cry
I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all it's strategy
leaves me battling with my pride
But through all the insecurity
some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
still trapped within my youth

And sometimes when we touch
the honesty's too much
and I have to close my eyes and hide
I want to hold you till I die
till we both break down and cry
I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides

At times I'd like to break you
and drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
and hold you endlessly
At times I understand you
and I know how hard you try
I watched while love commands you
and I've watched love pass you by
At times I think we're drifters
still searching for a friend
a brother or a sister
but then the passion flares again

And sometimes when we touch
the honesty's too much
and I have to close my eyes and hide
I want to hold ya till I die
till we both break down and cry
I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides

She has a very pristine voice. Stunningly beautiful vocal!!

OK

I dont know how to describe what I'm feeling now. It certainly is not anything along the joyful blissful contented line. It's neither close to the line of misery depressing desolation. It's kinda out of sorts. And that's the problem. Erm. Or maybe not.

I guess I just gotta find a way to tidy up all the thoughts. Too much of them running and tickling my mind and senses make me malfunction, so messed up and tangled now. I wonder how those 'BIG' people take care of their web of mind. I really do wonder. Is the machinery in them more superior? Or I've jus not found the right way.

It's soo energy consuming for me. I know I can handle it, but the process is not always pleasant, like now. It's like I can see the door right in front of me but I just don't know which path to take for there are so many of them all telling me take me take me, den I just want to whine. But then I know I can't coz thats useless. So, that left me at where I am now.

I shall probably have a check list for today.
read the papers
the summary
the appointment
the description
the accommodation
the chemistry
the review

OK. Lets get it started.

I need my bearings back.