How many rings would you like?

A friend asked me the other day, how many sets of ring should he prepare for his proposal then engagement and then the wedding itself. That, had seriously caught me thinkin for a while, not exactly bout the ring, but more on how guys actually think and plan for all these. it's cute, and funny at the same time. Hehe. you just love them at times like these.

Anyways, the thing is I never thought that how many rings to prepare can be a question of itself. The initial instinct told me that, aint 2 enough? Till he threw me with the question: don't you think I should get 2 rings for the proposal, 2 for the engagement and 2 for the wedding; or maybe 1 for the proposal, 2 engagement, 2 wedding; or 2 for proposal and engagement, 2 for the wedding. I was intrigued! and was like, wow. that's a lot of rings to get.

I don't know seriously. Do people really get that many rings to get to the marriage stage?

I see

Is it true that only in the death of lands that we see colours, and in the death of love that we see pearls.

What do I see now.

Spring

It's getting warmer now. just like how spring should be. the tulips in front of the union look so beautiful! reminds me of the old me playing in the sea of tulips with only smiles and no worries 6 years ago. My love for tulips. the blue sky. and the kodak moment.

The blossoming of the spring flowers still makes me smile, I can hear my heart dancing when looking at them. The only difference then and now is that I'm holding back more and more in a way I'm not in control of. But, this is not maglinant.

Some things never change. and never will be overtaken.

My new baju to come

I'm actually quite happy today. Hehe. know why? Coz I've finally bought a baju which I think is nice but stupid mun said it looks more like a pyjamas. Hmph!

Anyway, the point is that, I BOUGHT it the second I saw it without even feeling it and tryin it on and make sure it looks good on me!!! Online purchasing is never very much of my thing, but well, sometimes we must do something we don't normally do rite, and have faith on our impulsive action.

Say, the baju looks nice rite? It's only 29SGD including delivery to my KL home. Hoho. Now I just can't wait for it to get to me and see if my love at first sight is going to turn into a long term relationship. If so, I will broadcast it, don worry.

Smile, come to me

I'll make myself to smile more now!

Does chocolate really elevate one's mood? I'm havin this belgium chocolate ice cream but it doesnt seem to do ANYTHING. I'm still not smiling, my heart is not. It fills my stomach thou. Ha. See, now I've to say something stupid to get my smile back. Dang! Does it sound pathetic? Please say no. Or I'll have to kill myself. Hoho.

Self entertaining works. So I think. Tomorrow, tomorrow I'll go watch made of honour and talk to mun and ask him to tell me jokes. He's always been good at it how I'm missing it now.

You know it sucks when you're dying to call someone but you can't coz of the time difference!!

Arggggggggggggggggh!! OK. I'm more energetic now than before. So I shall draw smiley faces and get back to work. =))), =P, =D, :B. Eh, I think this :B looks funny, funny kinda cute, rite rite? I'm goin to start using it now. :B kekeke.

Another realisation

I've just realised something. The feeling of being in between, neither here nor there is kinda suckie. Depressing. When everyone has found their seat, I'm still in the middle of searching for mine.

We always say, extremity does more harm than good. To be moderate perhaps is better. But why do I feel that this not too happy to laugh hysterically, not too sad to tear, not too confident to shout out my good, not too coward to hide what I have feeling is making me so helpless; trapped only in the boring middle ground, too average to stand out in any good or bad way, am I.

Ironically, I found myself having a strong affinity towards wanting to be sucked into this swirl of emoness and feel how the the left over energy throbs through every cell in my body, how receptive I'm to every whispers and words, how inflamed and outstretched my nerves are and then suddenly fallen dead. The intensity of such, is infectious.

Can we be a bit simpler?

Sometimes, I just dont understand why some people need to be so defensive and think that there must be something behind why one is doin a good deed.

Cycle of life

There, a very beautiful and heartfelt post that brings tears to my eyes.

Grandma's lying on the bed in the hospital, dad said it's about time now. Everyone has prepared for the worst. It's not supposed to be an upsetting thing, right? it's part of a life cycle that everyone has to complete, but why do I feel my cheek is wet now?

I'm moved. That pinch in my heart, is still with me.

Sometimes

Sometimes, we can't even be honest to our own self.

And den, we become confused.

Last Day of Class

Can I tell you how happy I am now!!!!! muaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahahahaha.

I can't help but to smile at myself when I was walking to uni this afternoon to submit the reports. Yea, that stupid interim report which took away my youth is finally done and handed in! that stupid 10% worth assignment is finally a history! and there're no more classes to attend! no more 9am and 6pm! hohoho! can you believe it, I'm done with the final semester! There're only exams to sit for and research to do for the next three months before I kiss Leeds Uni goodbye!

And now here I am. Lying on my bed writing this. savouring the moment of blissful contentment that is mixed with 1% of bittergourd. Sigh. 8 months have just gone past me like this! it's actually a bit scary. Where are the traces of the past?