Way Back Into Love

Way Back Into Love - Hugh Grant & Drew Barrymore

I've been living with a shadow overhead,
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed,
I've been lonely for so long,
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on!

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away,
Just in case I ever need them again someday,
I've been setting aside time,
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind!

[Chorus]All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it true without a way back into love.
Oooooh.

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine,
I've been searching but i just don't see the signs,
I know that it's out there,
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere!

I've been looking for someone to shed some light,
Not somebody just to get me through the night,
I could use some direction,
And I'm open to your suggestions.

[Chorus]All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
And if I open my heart again,
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end!
Oooooooh, Ooooooh, Ooooooh

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

[Chorus]All I want to do is find a way back into love,
I can't make it through without a way back into love,
And if I open my heart to you,
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do,
And if you help me to start again,
You know that I'll be there for you in the end!
Oooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooh Ooooooooh. Ooooooooh.

Me is listening to this song now.
Me is in need of inspiration.

Missing...

Missing. That missing piece is still with him.

So much it leaves a hole in her heart, takes a layer off her skin. It leaves her raw and open, always waiting, eternally sensitive to the slightest intimation that may be near.

Even in her sleep, she's not immune.

Viennese Whirl

Am goin classical today.

Music really does soothe one's soul. Today's performance was marvellous! Bravo! Why on earth did I not go to any orchestra back then? Coz the good ones are always expensive back home! Duh.

But now, hehe, I shall start takin the advantage of being a student here. Can you imagine, all the concert, opera, orchestra, play in town hall costs only a freaking 5 pounds for students under 26! And the seats are fantastic! They are all front seats. Front. Seats.

Even better was that there wasnt anyone in front of us! Everywhere else was occupied except the seats in front of us! Say, aint that jus awesome?!

And Allan Clayton has a very typical english smile, which sweeps my feet off, so totally! *blush*. He's cute! I was staring at him. Literally. Well, not like he will notice. Everyone stares at him.

We have:-

Suppé - Morning, Noon and Night in Vienna
Johann Strauss II - Wine, Women and Song
Mozart - Die Zauberflöte: Dies Bildnis ist bezaubernd schön
Lehár - Paganini: Girls were made to love and kiss
Johann Strauss II - Annen Polk
Johann Strauss II - Excursion Train Polka
Richard Strauss - Der Rosenkavalier: waltzes
Johann Strauss II - Thunder and Lightning Polka
Johann Strauss II - Tales from the Vienna Woods
Adam - Oh Holy Night
Lehár - The Land of Smiles: You are my heart’s delight
Josef Strauss - Sphärenklänge
Josef Strauss - Jockey Polka
Josef Strauss - Emancipated Woman Polka
Eduard Strauss - Mit Extrapost J
Johann Strauss II - On the Beautiful Blue Danube

I was brought back to a time where the princess and her prince are dancing in swirls, ever so happily. Then I had the face of the princess and prince drawn of me and you. It's different, it doesn't have the fairy tale's feel. Neither it is graceful. The image was jus, funny. Funny in a cute way. I can't do that swirl or swing biz, but I knew I was smiling.

If only we get a chance to do a ballroom dancing together.

Frustration

Time like this makes me miss you even more.

How can joy turn into sadness, in a blink of an eye?

I am frustrated at myself for my inability to make things more pleasant. I am frustrated that I am letting such trivial emo stuff dominate my thoughts. Deeply, I know that this frustration stems from a combination of a myriad reasons that are invisible to the naked eye.

Meanie

I'm being mean again.

And I'm seriously feeling bad about it. Silent treatment; sometimes it can be more hurting than all the nasty harsh words. And I know exactly how it feels to be the receiving end of such treatment. It sucks. And, really, nobody deserves to be treated this way. Yet, I'm doin it. Again and again.

Why couldn't I say it out so direct what bothers me? Why have I submitted myself to behave this way knowing I'll regret later.

Not feeling comfortable. Not anymore. I can see it so clearly that I'm taking a step backward, more than a step. I'm shutting the door, my door. I'm being defensive. It's no longer an action under control, more like a reflex action that just snaps. Auto-pilot, is that what it is. Like how it's in Click, it happens just way too fast before I could refrain myself from being in that tone.

Do I even know what to do to right it? Perhaps.

The roses again and me smelling so good

And, my room looks so much cosy and nicer now with the roses! =p.

Marks & Spencer's body cream moisturizer blended with a harmony of jasmine, lily, orange and sublte musk smells sooo good, on meeeeeeeee!!! It's such a tantalizing aroma! I realised I keep smelling myself after applying it after shower. Gosh. I jus loooooooooove myself so much now!

And. If only you're here.

Roses, that made me smile

I'm a lil happy now. So I decided not to be too lazy. Ok. no. I'm very very happy now. So I decided to do a lil trimming for the roses I jus received instead of letting them be all so bushy with the leaves, and takin a few shots of it. And now I'm at my desk, writing. I promise I'll do some reading after this.

Roses, can be one of my movtivation too. =))

I don't have a vase with me, and trying to be green this time, =p, I'm implementing this recycling biz. Ha. I'm kinda proud of myself now. I'm using the pasta bottle as my vase. It doesn't look too bad at all, does it? Hehe.

Orange-y roses. It does make me smile looking at it. First time receiving orange-y roses. It's really sweet of you, thank you sooo very much. =))

Here's a close-up look. Say, it looks nice. I don't know why, but the focusing biz worked only once with more than 10 times of trying. Hmph.

White roses, pink roses, dark red roses, and now I've orange-y roses. When am I goin to get blue roses, black roses, yellow roses, purple roses? I'm not being greedy, am I? =p

I'm smiling now.

Ok. Lets get back to work. =))

Lazy bum

The laziness in me is kickin in again. Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarh.

Shopping does wear me out. The worst is that I've only managed to spent 30 pounds after one day's of hard work, with my feet in pain now.

Heh. At least I bought something I reaaaaally like. =p Wanna take a pic and put it up here, but again, I'm jus feeling soo lazy I don't even want to get out of my nice warm bed. Yea. I'm doin all my work and typing on the bed. And then fallin asleep.

And I soo wanted to put up the picture of my christmas eve dinner and den christmas dinner too. Looks like it's either goin to be delayed or never happen. The latter is more likely to be the case.

Tell me, why am I such a lazy bum these days?! I have 2 weeks left to finish up my 4 assigments and study for another 4 subjects. Russ russ, I need a dose of your meaness now. I'm being too complacent with my current state.

OK. I've a conclusion. Christmas is a festive that make people like me a lazy arse.

Girls being girls

Haven't done this for ages, and it certainly was a lot of fun. =p Us, playin with our new toy!

Ying Zi and Hiromi getting all ready to dirty the pallete.

This is Ying Zi's first time. She's really stayin focused huh! =) And she's soo cute for being extremely careful when raping the colours coz she din want the powder and all the glittery stuff lyin all over. So delicate!

Hiromi doin her eyes. She's the best among all. And I like the colour she put on her eyes!

and thats Meee putting on the blusher. The trick is, smile first and feel your cheek bone, den only apply. That's what I was told. =p

Now with the lip gloss. Yum Yum. And I think I really should do sth to my hair now! OK. I'm starting to be vain. Who cares?! =p

Ta-daa. The next top model. Keke. Please don't puke. Ok ok. I think I'm jus acting really stupid. Blek.

Why do I look sooo awkward? Ok. I think Hiromi can be the next top model. =) I needa learn how to post in a err better way.

Girls. And we're proud to be girls! What would you be thinkin if guys were to do something like that?!

p/s: I think I want to take up a professional make-up course. And do a part time. Hehe.

Friends oh friends

I don't know why but I'm in this cant-stop-smiling-state. =)))

There're really no obvious reasons for me to be this elated. But I am.

So I started to think, what made me happy today, at this very moment.

1) Hiromi told me that there'll be fireworks display at the Millenium Square this New Year knowing how big a sucker of fireworks I am. I shouted OMFG in extreme joy!

2) Talkin to Wee Yee always made me laugh. What's more with him in the all red one piece uniform, that sort which the coool manly plumber always wears in movie. Gosh. He's sooo cute! in a funny way. Haha.

3) The thought of playin with our new pinky toy tomorrow with Ying Zi and Hiromi jus gives me this acute excitement! Its goin to be a day with colours. Hohoho. I can't wait to see the product of it.

4) Tang Tang's sooo sweet sending me the pic of him and SM immediately when I told him how much I miss seeing faces of my cool buddies.

Friends. Awww. My friends are such a lovely bunch! How can I live without them? How is my life goin to be meaningful without them? How can I share all my happiness and tears if it's without them? How?

All my love and hugz to all of you!

p/s: hugs. Big bear hug. it is the most wonderful and precious thing in the world.