Monday, July 8, 2013

its been such a long while since i last write. or rather, feel my emotion.

there's so much happiness this morning. from the impromptu escapade. the texts. and the remnants of last night call with you. i love how such short conversation always seems drifting across things, never quite getting anywhere, and yet never failed to leave me feeling contented followed with a good night sleep; strangely, it always sounds welcoming, but just doesnt confirm anything. if i'm lucky, i might catch it on a vulnerable night. and it will spill something out of its mouth and onto your soul.

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there are times where i still wonder the what ifs . there are times where i would construct this false sense of myself that earnestly believed there was a place for me there. but i guess i'll never find out. or perhaps i'm not at all that keen to find out.

looking back at the posts. the pictures. i thought you have been well buried somewhere deep down and never will resurface. but all of these are indicating that i have been and will always think about you, unknowingly. be it when i was happy, or when i was missing some others.

i guess all i want to say is that, i'm still missing you.