september's a crazy month. so many things have changed. yet so many things remained the same. sometimes i really do wish i could document every single bits of my life so i will never forget the things, the people, the encounters, that make me who i am today.
i am still on page 93 since march, that march. i was almost like a fish out of water a month ago. thought i have made friends but apparently not, thought i stood a good chance of getting it but aparently it's just my delusion, thought it was all sincere gestures but apparently everything's just a facade. you know R, sometimes i think you are quite right. it's so funny how i once ardently disagreed with you when you said things like friendships never last, that there is no one we can truly rely on for help or support, but i guess i see now where all these are coming from.
things are still not quite where i want it to be, but i'm holding on very well, no more moaning, no more sulking, just walkin the thoughts and filling the gaps in that part of my brain where giggles once bubbled up from. and i am just very very very grateful to have met so many other people who have no obligation to help to care or be kind but did.
thankyou.
i'll find it.
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