Why

we always walk into heartbreaking things, or slip into them. just yesterday, i was brought into this whole emotional swirl. apparently i cant always trust my instincts.

i didnt admit how i truly felt in the first place. i was sitting there popping pills of denial while she broke the news just because i want to feel close to happiness. but really, i didnt like to know about it. i didnt like the sound of it. not even a tiny bit. its not the most pleasing thing to hear bout, especially when i was already planning to give it benefits of doubt, but the sad truth is its all making sense now, the timing seemed to fit in well, what was confusing then was made clear, and god damn it that breaks me.

oh well. my own idyllic wishes, thinking that things would be the same like before. why would you do this to me. why would you show me glimpses and then took it away. i have no blood left for this fever.

audio food - kindly unspoken by kate voegele