Monday, April 30, 2012

想念

有好多好多话想和你说
好想好想给你打电话

不知道你心里觉得比较轻松了吗

原来想念也有很多种
平时的想念就只是想
今天的想念里却有揪揪的感觉
有点想掉眼泪但又不知道是为了什么

真的很想你
想你的声音
想你笑的样子
想你爱玩的时候
想你有时傻傻的

你想我了吗




Thursday, April 26, 2012

how do you look at the person you love and tell yourself it's time to walk away.

impact of moments.

the vow.

inspired.

bubbles.

light show.

sound of the night.

you. 


Wednesday, April 25, 2012

我还是相信
其实啊 真的可以试着享受什么事也不用做的片刻
放下武士精神 接受生活上的不确定

情感
并不应该被视为一个会让你停滞不前或软弱的东西
可以感受感觉情感
放开心胸接纳未知
全心全意
诚实诚恳
可以让你有更多的真实刹那
更能自由自在的生活

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

wasnt at all expecting that you are still the very first person i thought of sharing the satisfying discussion i had with the people today. almost gonna call you and then the hesitation kicks in - how i wish i could just do it and ignore the whispers that were asking me to give you a lil bit more time and space.

i wonder if this is gonna be the way it is from now on - to submit to the mind instead of following the heart.

i can't help but to think what does this mean to honouring the Now.


Friday, April 20, 2012

last evening, i was given a simple thank you with a smile from the person selling me the dumplings. maybe it wasnt just a thank you and a smile, its a full hearted sincere personal thank you that warms my heart. i was pleasantly surprise by such gesture, in the hustle bustle of life where everybody seems to be so distant, reserved and self-centered, i was given a glimpse of pure expression of gratitude.

i might have forgotten who you are as time passes but i will never forget that moment of presence. thank you for giving me the treasured opportunity to rediscover the beauty of life and pure bliss.

Thursday, April 19, 2012

喜欢

好喜欢和爸聊天的感觉
喜欢每天都可以从生活中发现小小的乐趣和值得学习的人生哲理

也好喜欢一家人在一起吃饭看电视的感觉
就算没有说话
也觉得很开心

喜欢自己一个人在家时不再觉得无聊
喜欢想你的时候 
就只是想你

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

想给你的信

看到了一篇文章
里面提到了一些与思想和情感有关的东西
想要和你说说 就写下来了

有时候我在想啊
说谓的负担和愧疚
到底是什么呢
我一直都认为只要是诚实真诚的面对自己和他人
为什么还需要觉得愧疚呢
如果是因为过去的原因
又或者是觉得可能没能达到对未来的一些期许
那更没必要了
就因为了避免负担痛苦而放弃拥有当下
真的就是解决之道吗

我相信你有我还不能了解的原因
其实我还真的挺好奇的
eric 那天也和我分享了他本身的一些故事和观点
让我突然觉得会不会是男人在某些事情上想的都是一样的
怎么都在想如果我不可以给你我觉得你想要的 那就什么都不要开始
怎么会有那么多的如果呢
怎么想的那么远去了呢

不管怎样
我真心希望有一天你能不再觉得对我有所亏欠
也希望它不会遮盖住你真实的感觉

想你的心一直都在
好开心自己可以感受和接受心里面所有的emotion
以前还会觉得有点应付不来那么丰富的情感
现在竟然可以这样自然轻松面对
看着心里所有的情绪变化
让它自由发挥却又不被它控制
觉得有点不可思议
真的觉得不一样了

希望会有那么一天
我可以亲口对你说
发生在我身上的一些变化

Monday, April 16, 2012

dear you,

its been three days since we last communicated. i have been well.

last several months have been rough for you and me. i have had my hurtful moments, i have been happy, i have trapped myself in time, living almost exclusively through memory and anticipation, i have been dissappointed, and i have been hopeful. but i have to say, regardless of the ups and downs, if there is anything i have learned from these, it is that presence is the key to freedom. this is not a new saying - i have been preaching this to others too, but to have truly practising and honoring that present moment is all i ever have is another thing all together.

i am glad that i did not get sucked into the state of unhappiness like i would, i am glad to find small slices of humanity here and there and being inspired by someone's intelligence, willpower or even kookiness. you, are one of the many who have made the biggest impacts on my life and the way i percieve life. i thank you for that. for being a part of my life.

i can't say i'm doing very well now, in terms of my life situations, but i can feel myself morphing into a state that feels natural and welcome. it's new. but it's old, and it's natural. it's a propelling force. and it is an amazing feeling to discover that after much toil and trouble, what i want at the end is what i wanted at the beginning. i have come to realise that it is the quality of my consciousness at this moment that determines the future.

i have to admit i'm still thinking about you everyday; the urge to want to share with you my story remains unchanged. i dont want to try to forget what i truly feel for you. thoughts might lie, but emotions and feelings never lie. for some reasons, as i confronted my emotions, cherish and embrace these present moments of missings, i feel liberated.

Sunday, April 15, 2012





无意间在家里的小茶杯上看到了这两个字 并排在一起
心里起了一阵悸动 我想起了你 也想起了我们

我了解你的选择 我了解这个时候的你需要有自己一个人的空间去处理心里上的负担
我知道你这么做是为了我好 我也知道你是下定了决心
我说过我会支持你的决定
我说过我会好好的过
但是 我好想你 我真的好想你

原来真正爱一个人是可以放手的
是可以很单纯的只是喜欢他 希望他好
不期望一定要在一起

原来真正爱一个人不会因为分开而觉得难过
不会因为不能够联系而伤心
只会很庆幸的觉得这样也好
只要他可以开心自由
就够了

我会好好的照顾自己 不让你为我担心
我会好好的享受当下
然后在有机会的时候和你分享
我会好好的珍惜对你的感情
好好的把它放在心里 直道我们再相遇